So it’s been a hot minute since I’ve written one of these types of posts (almost two months actually…) but I felt it was appropriate to write one considering what has been going on in my life recently. It’s actually not so much one specific thing, but rather a downward spiral of little things that has brought me to where I currently am.
I did a post awhile back about Kalyn Nicholson and how much she inspires me as a person. I don’t remember exactly what video it was (otherwise I would’ve linked it in this post) but I do remember a key thing she had said that has stuck with me ever since. She made the statement about how each individual is in a constant cycle of creative periods and critical periods. The creative period being where you’re feeling at your absolute high, you’re able to feel as if you can do or be whoever you want, etc. On the contrary, the critical period is where you feel lower than normal, you’re constantly comparing yourself to others, you’re always wishing your life was better than it was, etc. And I think I can speak for many when I say that this is absolutely true.
With summer coming to a close, I am really starting to feel the effects of working two jobs, not only on my body, but on my emotional well-being as well. Some friends that I became close with over the summer have already left for college. I’m spending my rare free time packing up my life once again as I prepare to make the move back to college. I’m ordering expensive textbooks and giving away money in ten seconds to a university that took me who knows how long to make. The list goes on and on.
But with being in such a critical period of my life where I’m constantly being hard on myself as an individual, I have realized that in order to “find my balance,” I need to keep reminding myself of all the good that is still present in my life as well. This starts by finding the positive side to anything that feels like it is affecting your life negatively.
Yes, I am physically and emotionally drained from going to bed at midnight and waking up at 7am every morning to work two jobs this summer, but I continuously remind myself how much this will put me ahead in my future and how much less student loans I will have to pay back. Every little bit counts, right?
I am devastated that all of my friends are leaving for college and it saddens me that all the memories we have made this summer together will be left in the past, but this reminds me how lucky I am that I have so many great friends that are so hard to say goodbye to. As everyone leaves, I look forward to being able to visit each and every one of them as we all take the next step in our lives.
As much as packing sucks, I am able to look forward to all of the good to come as I transfer to a new university with my best friend, something I’ve been looking forward to ever since I opened my acceptance email. Move-in day is just 13 short days away and as much as I’ll hate leaving my family once again, I know that this fresh start is exactly what I need for myself.
I could go on and on about the negative things in my life, as I’m sure almost anyone else could, but what good does that do? Challenge yourself the next time you find yourself upset, complaining or unsatisfied with something in your life. Although your first reaction may to be react negatively, take the time to find the positives in each situation as this makes for an overall more positive attitude and outlook.
Life is all about finding your balance, don’t let the critical periods of your life overcome all of the wonderful things that are happening to you as an individual each and every day. You may be surprised what a little soul-searching and re-evaluating can do for your well-being.