Yes I know the month is two-thirds over but just hear me out for a second.
This month has been so long that I can’t even hear myself think half the time, I’m not even kidding. I knew that transferring to a new university, especially one must larger than the first, would entail a lot more homework and studying. But that doesn’t mean that I’m still not overwhelmed, by any means. This week especially, I have two midterms and two very important essays coming up, on top of all of the normal homework and readings I have to do daily.
No I’m not complaining because I know that this is what the life of the college student is like, but that doesn’t mean that I can’t wish for a break every once and awhile (even though I know I won’t get one). Which is also why I am finding the very small amount of time to write this post almost three weeks later at 12:47am on a Tuesday. But hey, who’s keeping track right? (Once again, it’s me).
And I find it extremely hilarious that I apologize every time when one of these posts are late like people actually care and keep up with them on a monthly basis when the reality is, I’m probably over-stressing about it (which adds to even more academic stress and trust me, it spirals downwards fast).
I’ve also been going through a lot of personal shit lately as well (whoops, I swore on my blog now too) (hey, at least I’m showing you the full me now) (and now I’m getting off track once again) (look at me, I’m a mess). ANYWAYS, even though my new home has provided me with a laundry list of new opportunities and friends and memories, I’ve still been experiencing some of the same let downs that I have experienced in the past and it led me to believe that maybe it’s not entirely the environment I put myself in, but rather who I surround myself with and how I view myself as an individual as well.
I know it’s wayyyyyy easier said than done, but I want to work on learning from my mistakes and start putting myself in positions and relationships with others where there is an utmost respect for each other. I think it’s time that everyone in our society, and our generation especially, starts growing up a little more. Instead of messing with others feelings and beating around the bush about things (as my mother would say), I believe one of the most important steps to growing up is being able to speak up and treat others around you with respect, no matter who they are or what their relationship is to you.
And yes, I know this post is all over the place and has no real flow or direction to it but that should just show you right there what exactly is going on in my mind at the moment.
We’re all just struggling to find who we are and how to treat others in this world and although it’s a struggle, I promise you that it’s doable.
Have a wonderful rest of your Tuesday night (Wednesday morning…?)