Hello lovelies, I promise I did not forget about you.
Rather, I basically forgot how to do life in general tbh. If you have had the chance to see my planner the past couple weeks, you would be more than understanding too, believe me.
Guys, college is hard.
I mean really hard.
I honestly don’t know how I’ve made it through three months so far but here I am writing this to you so obviously I did something right if I’m still alive. I’m losing steam though, I really am. Not only has school been extremely tough but other life factors have really been challenging me recently.
With the winter months changing and it getting darker wayyyyy earlier in the night, I’m finding myself in a “mood” more often than not. Maybe it’s just because I’m sick of school, maybe because it’s just because I would rather lay in bed all day, who knows. All I know is that I CAN’T WAIT for a break from this “life stuff.”
I really shouldn’t be complaining (even though that’s all college students really do lately).
I have been so (hashtag) blessed these past few months as my independence and hard work has really allowed me to push myself to be the best version of myself I have ever known. I have received so many wonderful opportunities (especially my most recent one that I CANNOT WAIT to share with y’all) and have really grown myself as a person this past month. November was all about giving thanks to those that are important in my life as well as to all those that have helped me succeed over and over again.
But let’s keep in mind that yes, I went through struggles of my own before I was able to reach this contentment with myself and where I am in my life. If I had to describe myself in one word that would sum up exactly how my last month has gone, it would definitely be
And y’all, don’t let this sound like I’m some conceited bitch that only cares about herself and what’s going on in her life. Let this go to show that it’s okay to work hard and achieve greatness all on your own. It’s great if someone pushes you to do great things, don’t get me wrong. But the trust test of one’s inner self motivation is just how hard one is willing to work to get to where they want to go in life.
So yeah, I’m damn proud of myself.
And with that, have a good rest of your night and once again, (I’m pretty sure I don’t even need to say this anymore because it’s probably expected by now) but I’M SORRY FOR BEING HALF A MONTH LATE.
Ok but fr though.